Performed by Emily Deloach of Indelible Grace.
I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith and love and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know
And seek more earnestly His face.
‘Twas He who taught me thus to pray,
And He, I trust, has answered prayer.
But it has been in such a way
As almost drove me to despair.
I hoped that in some favored hour
At once He’d answer my request
And by His love’s constraining power
Subdue my sins and give me rest.
Instead of this He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart
And let the angry powers of Hell
Assault my soul in every part.
Yea more with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Cast out my feelings, laid me low.
“Lord, why is this?’ I trembling cried,
“Wilt Thou pursue thy worm to death?”
“‘Tis in this way,” the Lord replied,
“I answer prayer for grace and faith.”
“These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free
And break thy schemes of earthly joy,
That thou mayest seek thy all in me.”
–I Asked the Lord by John Newton
I love this song, and pray it often. “From self and pride to set thee free, that thou mayst seek thy all in me.” Do you really believe that freedom from self and pride, and satisfaction in God only, is the best thing for you? Do you really believe it is better for you to lose your life than to keep it? Only when you say “yes” can you really start to change.